Where it all began.

In the interest of self-care, today I’m sharing with you my first ever post. 

Many of you haven’t seen this yet. It’s where the story began.

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Yoga is like falling in love. It’s hard to explain to people who haven’t experienced it themselves.

Today was the first day of my 200 hour yoga teacher training.  My first thoughts are that I’m so glad I’m doing this now and with these people. I have been working the front desk and practicing regularly at the studio for more than a year now. Looking around the room I saw mostly familiar people I’ve practiced with many times.  I’m looking forward to practicing and learning from everyone – not just Michelle and the IAY gals. 

Why here?

It’s All Yoga is the closest slice of yoga heaven I’ve ever experienced. The teachers, without exception, exhibit kindness, generosity of spirit, humor and wisdom beyond their years.  The space itself is an inspiration in green living and the studio’s commitment to the environment is evident. I spend all my spare time trying to drag everyone I know into the studio to share in the goodness.

Why now?

I’ve been flirting with a regular yoga practice for years. I took my first class more than 10 years ago and thought I’d never experience anything so amazing. Fast forward to summer 2006 when I did my first “summer school” (3 unlimited months of yoga) at IAY and I discovered that amazing feeling only compounded with regularity. School years take an obscene amount of energy the first few years of a teacher’s career and so my regular practice suffered when “real life” returned after the summer break.

Last summer I started “Desk Diva-ing” and the rest is history. Instead of exclusively focusing on my teaching job this last school year, I devoted several days a week to my yoga practice. Working the desk committed me to two days a week and sometimes that is all I could do. Other weeks I found myself on my mat many more – sometimes even at home! 

Over this past year, my mat became my friend and sometimes my enemy. I spent a lot of time crying on my mat – frustration at my body’s limitations, envious of other people’s strength and flexibility, sadness because of some fertility issues, grief because of past trauma, family illnesses and deaths.

It wasn’t all tears (although sometimes it felt that way). Connection, joy, self acceptance, love, dare I say – divinity have also been present on my mat. Had those been there all along? Had I missed them always living in the past and the future? Would I keep experiencing them if I continue to practice?

This new regular practice helped me take my yoga (non-competitiveness, loving-kindness, openheartedness) into my classroom as well. I am looking forward to seeing what this deeper self exploration means for me and my students over the next few months as I delve deeper into a practice I’m falling in love with.

Adoption is not for the faint of heart

We talked to the owner of our adoption agency today after months of weirdness with our case worker in the satellite office.

Here is a list of things I learned from today’s conversation.

  1. Our dossier – fancy name for paperwork – just got sent to Thailand a week and a half ago.
  2. Our “waiting clock” of 12-13 months started when our dossier got sent to Thailand.
  3. We thought our dossier had been sent to Thailand in the spring of 2009.
  4. What we thought of as almost a year of waiting patiently, apparently was just practice for more waiting patiently.
  5. Now our expected time to travel is Summer 2011.
  6. I’ll be working next year.
  7. Working with satellite offices – not so much.
  8. I really appreciate hearing the words “neglected”, “mishandled” and “miscommunication” immediately followed by the words I’m sorry.

 Since no one is quite sure how to react to this situation, please let me ask for what we need and to tell you what we definitely don’t need.

Let’s start with the DON’T LIST in case you are short on time:

  1. “This exact same thing happened to my (fill in the blank)” …. I’m sorry to hear that, but right now I don’t care. It’s happening to me now. Focus, people.
  2. “Everything happens for a reason”…. I know and my supreme disappointment is directly attributed to someone misinforming me at best and lying to me at worst. So unless the universe is trying to tell me not to trust people – save it.
  3. “But you’ll be such great parents…the kid will be lucky and …. it sucks that “good” people don’t have kids, but “those” people do.” – Quit judging us and them. You aren’t making anyone feel better.
  4. “There are plenty of kids here to adopt”  -Since you don’t know our situation,  keep this kind of not so veiled judgement to yourself as well.
  5. “I wish I could just make it happen for you”  -We do too, but you can’t.

Now for what we actually need:

  1. Hugs.
  2. Lots of tissue.
  3. Quiet time to be sad.
  4. Some fun. Please feel free to take us out to dinner, the movies, shows – whatever – we’re easy that way.
  5. A vacation. Feel free to offer any and all frequent flyer miles and vacations houses. We’d love to get away this summer. Hell, maybe even this spring.

Yoga+Music365 (day19) – Sara Watkins self-titled -Recipe Edition!

Each Tuesday I’ll share an easy, nutritious recipe so you can join me in the home-cooked self-care.

This week’s recipe takes a bit of time on the weekend, but keeps easily in the freezer for home-cooked goodness on the workdays. It is also NOT vegetarian, however I think it could easily be made without meat.

Crustless Quiché

Serves 8 to 10

24 oz cottage cheese

2 cups of diced ham (or a couple of slices of crumbled bacon)

8 oz shredded Colby

6 eggs

1/2 cup flour

10 oz frozen spinach/thawed/drained – I usually use 16 oz since that’s the size from Trader Joe’s

1 tsp seasoned salt

Preheat oven to 350 degrees

Combine all ingredients – mix well.

Pour into a lightly greased 9X13 pan

Bake 1 hour.

Cool, cut, wrap and freeze.

To heat – microwave on high for 2-3 minutes.

I like to eat this with a slice of toast and a Morningstar Farms sausage pattie. A savory delicious breakfast in under 5 minutes.

Tell me: Do you have any super quick, easy, delicious food ideas that help you feel well cared for? If so, leave me a comment and I’ll try them too.

Today’s yoga brought to you by Madeleine at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento.

Today’s music is self-titled by Sara Watkins.

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

I’m teaching 3/5/10 – so mark your calendars!

Yoga+Music365 (day18) – Volume One by She & Him

My left shoulder is hurting again.

And by again, I mean still.

I initially injured my shoulder falling on it on pavement back in 2000.

Falling?

Yep.

In the dark.

In front of a busy hotel.

Over a crack in the sidewalk.

Totally completely and utterly jet-lagged as I had just returned from London the night before.

In other words, I had absolutely zero warning that I was about to kill my shoulder.

The day after I fell I went to the doctor and had it x-rayed because I thought I broke my shoulder (ha – It’s only 9 years later that I know there is NO shoulder bone!) and the doctor told me it was just deeply bruised. I needed to rest it and eventually it would be fine.

I did my best to rest it while still taking twice a week yoga classes. Every time we went into Downward Facing Dog I would suffer through the discomfort in my shoulder and wonder why people kept claiming this was a resting pose.  I thought everyone felt the same discomfort and pressure in their shoulder that I did.

I thought that I was just doing the pose wrong. If I only practiced it more, I’d get better and my shoulder would stop hurting.

The only relief I found was coming out of the dreaded dog and putting myself in Child’s Pose with my arms wrapped around my feet.

It wasn’t long and something else caught my attention and I quit yoga.

Eventually my shoulder felt better. Or at least I didn’t notice it.

When I started practicing yoga regularly and the shoulder discomfort came back with a vengeance. Oddly, instead of listening to my inner voice screaming to stop doing what hurts, I just kept doing what the teacher asked.

And that was a lot of dog.

It wasn’t until we started talking about developing a home practice during teacher training that I started to think about what would help me feel better. Not doing every pose the class because someone went through a lot of planning and because I didn’t want anyone to think I couldn’t keep up.

If for nothing else, I’m so glad I decided to do the teacher training because it really deepened my own practice. Not so much the physical practice, but the practice of listening to my body and asking it what it needs to feel best.

So in order to really listen to what my body needs, until further notice – NO MORE DOG.

My fellow YTT, Bob, killed his pigeon and now I’m killing the dog.

If you set your mat up next to mine, please remind me to kill the dog.

Today’s yoga brought to you by Amanda, at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento.

Today’s music is Volume One by She and Him

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com.  — I’m teaching 3/5/10!

The First Day of (Half Marathon) School

Remember what it was like to go to a new school? The fear? The anxiety? The self-doubt?

Remember all those feelings of angst and what-if-nobody-talks-to-mes and what-if-they-are-already-friends-with-everyones and no-one-wants- to-be- my- friend?

That’s how I was feeling about going to my first day of half marathon training.

Just like every other night before school, I set out my clothes the night before. I set my alarm and went to bed early.

Unlike most night before schoolers, I slept fitfully. That’s one benefit of being a teacher, you have so many first days of school that you can now sleep well the night before because you have so much practice.

At the first signs of my alarm clock’s light (I have the Bio-Brite) I got up, got dressed and ate some tea and toast. The morning sky was covered in thick, wet fog and out the door I went dressed in my best Johnny Cash exercise outfit: black pants, black shirt, black jacket, black shoes and of course, a black hat.

I left 30 minutes before I needed to be there just to be sure I’d be on time and of course arrived 20 minutes early. Just enough time to look around the parking lot for a single face I recognized.

No one.

Hundreds of people and I know no one? Really?

All this time I was hoping that I’d know someone so I wouldn’t be the only friendless person.

And once again the universe answered.

Finally someone I knew!

Next time I ask the universe of something, I’m going to be more specific.

It’s a good thing the coaching is so great (I already got a useful tip!) and the other kids were so nice (thanks Lucy and Deana!) because otherwise it would be a long couple of months trying to ignore the only person I knew there who was trying really hard to ignore me.

Music Roundup! Week 2

Sorry for the delay. The day got away from me – in a good way. Let me count the ways…

1. First day of half-marathon training = success!

2. Baby shower where I didn’t know anyone except the guest of honor = success! I love meeting new, interesting women from all walks of life.

3. Running into a new friend at the library and chatting like crazy in the cold.

Each Saturday I’ll share my thoughts on the music of the week. Please keep in mind I am not a music critic, just a girl with a musical obsession that needs to be tempered.

Yoga+Music365 is my effort to expand my musical horizons by listening to a new album every day in 2010.

I’m always looking for new music, so please send me the titles of albums that you absolutely can not live without, albums you wish were on everyone’s iPods and albums you play over and over despite no one else “getting it”.

The albums don’t have to be new releases, just new to me.

NOTE: I’m linking to MySpace when it’s available because of the ease of listening to songs, not because of a love of MySpace.

MUSIC ROUNDUP!

Day 8:

Title: New Seasons by the Sadies

Highlights:

Nothing really stood out for me.

Will I listen again?

Maybe. We’ll see what other gems reveal themselves this year.

Day 9:

Title: The Reminder by Feist(full disclosure: I’ve heard this one before, but not in 2010).

Highlights:

  1. So Sorry
  2. Past in Present
  3. 1234

Will I listen again?

Absolutely! I’m not sure what it is about this Canadian singer that makes me keep coming back, but I do.

Day 10:

Title: Noble Beast by Andrew Bird

Highlights:

Will I listen again?

I will keep trying, but none of these songs is nearly as good as the songs on the Andrew Bird mix CD my friend Michelle made for me. I would give you some of those names, but she didn’t give me the names. I did figure out “Nervous Tic Motion of the Head to the Left.” Listen now.

Day 11:

Title: Stay Positive by The Hold Steady (full disclosure: I’ve heard this one before, but not in 2010).

Highlights:

Sequestered In Memphis

Will I listen again?

I have it, but I don’t ever listen to it. I have a strange disconnected relationship to The Hold Steady. I saw them live last spring and couldn’t stop smiling because they so clearly have a great time playing and their songs are fist-pumping athems of classic American rock, but for some reason I’m always listening to something else. Maybe now that I’m going to be walking a lot more I’ll add them to the mix and see if that helps.

Day 12:

Title: Middle Cyclone by Neko Case

Highlights:

  1. This Tornado Loves You
  2. People Got A Lot of Nerve

Will I listen again?

YES! Although I will have to keep myself from always listening to Fox Confessor Brings the Flood. The title track has a lyric that I believe is connected to my tear ducts.

Will I ever see you again
Will there be no one above me to put my faith in
Every time – a tear in my eye. I don’t know why, but that’s some powerful music.

Day 13:

Title: Emotionalism by The Avett Brothers

Highlights:

  1. Shame
  2. Paranoia in B-Flat Major

Brotherly harmonies!

Will I listen again?

Yes! Love, love, love! We may just have to go see them when they come to the Crest in April.

 Day 14:

Title: Trouble in Mind by Hayes Carll (full disclosure: I’ve heard this one before, but not in 2010).

Highlights:

1. Drunkin’ Poet’s Dream

2. It’s a Shame

3. She Left Me for Jesus

Will I listen again?

YES!  These dudes opened for Old97’s on their Blame it on Gravity Tour in 2008 and were rocking enough to capture my attention. Plus the pedal steel player looks like a 1967 version of Jimmy Page.

Please leave a comment about what you think I should be listening to this year.

Or send me a CD – Yoga+Music365 c/o Tami Hackbarth PO BOX 188616 Sacramento, CA 95818.

Yesterday’s yoga brought to you by: the post walk/run stretch by Fleet Feet in Sacramento.

Today’s yoga brought to you by: the kitchen!

Yesterday’s music is Acid Tongue by Jenny Lewis

Today’s music is Re-Arrange Us by Mates of State

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Yoga+Music365 (day15) – Townes by Steve Earle

Every Friday I am going to take a day off from blogging.

Let’s be honest, the real self-care comes from knowing your limits, boundaries and taking the time you need to renew.

But what about the yoga and the music?

 Today’s yoga brought to you by the new teachers at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento.

Today’s music is Townes by Steve Earle.

What practices do you regularly do to take care of yourself? Please leave a comment and if your self-care thing interests me, maybe I’ll start doing your thing too.

PS- Think of Fridays as blog-reading catch-up day. If you’ve been a little behind on all the good stuff, here’s my gift to you.

 PPS- Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

Yoga+Music365 (day14) – Trouble in Mind by Hayes Carll

Last night I attended the kick off meeting for my half marathon training. There were hundreds of people (or at least it looked that way) wedged into the Fleet Feet on J Street to hear all about our upcoming training.

I signed up for this right after Christmas while my jeans were feeling a little more snug than they should and before I started my Yoga+Music365 challenge. Plus I’m turning 40 the weekend after the race and what a better way to usher in my new decade.

Right?

What the hell have I gotten myself into?

I’ve never done this kind of thing before, I don’t know anyone and they kept talking about “injury-free” training.

Why have I signed up for something with a warning label?

I’ll admit it. My training schedule scared me. In the next 8 weeks I’ll be going from walking one night a week to walking 7, 8, 10, and 12 miles AT A TIME!

There is some good news in all of this. 

Instead of striving for a sexier group (read more advanced/competitive/cool), I signed up in the walking group. Believe me, this is  a huge step in my yogic path.

Stay tuned for more adventures in training over the next couple of months.

Today’s yoga brought to you by the home practice in Sacramento.  Damn dentist appointment.

Today’s music is Trouble in Mind by Hayes Carll.

Each Saturday I’ll share my thoughts on the music of the week in the MUSIC ROUNDUP!

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

Yoga+Music365 (day13) – Emotionalism by The Avett Brothers

A couple days ago at work someone asked me about how to use blocks in yoga. I quickly rattled off a some answers and then went back to eating my lunch.

Days later I was still thinking about all the ways I’ve used blocks in yoga. Check out the HuggerMugger (yes, I still love that name!) chart above for some ideas.

 WAYS TO USE A BLOCK:

  • To make my arms longer in Triangle, its evil cousin Revolved Triangle, Half Moon and Side Crane/Crow.
  •  I’ve stood on blocks too make my legs longer in King Dancer.
  • I’ve stood on blocks to help me balance more evenly in Crow.
  • I’ve “massaged” my IT band (Ouch! I’d recommend the foam roller for this)
  • I’ve “massaged” my feet, calves, and hamstrings (Again, ouch. It’s like Thai massage – or self-induced accupressure).
  • I’ve used a block in Warrior 2 and lunge – put it between my knee and the wall for balance.
  • I’ve used a block to strengthen my upper body for inversions like forearm balance and dolphin.
  • To give myself a lift in Bridge
  • I’ve used blocks to support my knees in Supta Baddha Konasana and Sukhasana
  • I’ve sat on blocks in Hero
  • I even use blocks in Savasana. Well, if I put a bolster under my knees, I put my feet on blocks. So comfortable!

 What are ways you use blocks to help you in yoga? What are your favorite yoga props? Please leave me a comment and I’ll give your prop ideas a try.

Remember Saturday is the MUSIC ROUNDUP! I’ll share my thoughts on the music of the week. 

Today’s music is Emotionalism by The Avett Brothers

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

Yoga+Music365 (day12) – Middle Cyclone by Neko Case

  Each Tuesday I’ll share an easy, nutritious recipe so you can join me in the home-cooked self-care.

Since my first week back, I’ve slipped a bit back into my habit of reading awesome blogs (Fluent Self being my favorite FREE therapy) in the morning before work.

Sometimes I get so caught up in the online goodness. Then I realize if I don’t leave RIGHT NOW, I’m going to be late. Which of course gives me a little adrenaline rush before work as I’m then rushing around trying to figure out at the last-minute what I’m going to grab quickly that will still nourish my body.

It’s not pretty, but I’m most alert first thing in the morning so that’s when I like to read the most… so sue me.

Here’s my easy quick healthy breakfast for the week.

Manna Bread (cinnamon date) with butter, jam or honey. I slice it, heat it for 45 seconds in the microwave or lightly toast it, spread and go. I eat it in the car (I know, I know) on the way to work with a warm cup of Pacific Natural Foods Almond Milk.

By the time I’ve gotten to work, my belly is full and I feel like I’ve taken care of myself even though I was a crazy rushed person.

Tell me: Do you have any super quick, easy, delicious food ideas that help you feel well cared for? If so, leave me a comment and I’ll try them too.

Today’s yoga brought to you by Madeleine at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento. Gentle Yoga with Madeleine is like getting a little kiss on the forehead after a long day. In other words, just what I need at the end of the day. LOVE her!

Today’s music is Middle Cyclone by Neko Case.

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

Yoga+Music365 (day11) – Stay Positive by The Hold Steady

Pajama Day!

Recently I took a yoga workshop with Mary Paffard about living with a serene heart. The basic message is that as a culture we’re too ambitious with our time and we need to make conscious choices about slowing down in order to care for ourselves properly.

She advocated staying home and staying in bed all day when you aren’t sick.

I couldn’t agree more.

After my excellent massage, I checked my calendar and saw that every single Saturday for the forseeable future was booked.

Except this one.

It was now or never. I had to take my chance at Pajama Day before all my weekend days got away from me. 

Pajama Day!

Saturday I spent all day in my pajamas. At midday I took a shower and put on clean pajamas.

No, I wasn’t sick. Remember this project is to help me not get sick.

What did I do all day?

  • wrote my weekly music roundup
  • read my blog comments and responded to my awesome readers
  • listened to music
  • listened to Wait, Wait Don’t Tell Me while eating chocolate in bed – 2 Sacramento mentions!
  • watched an episode of GLEE (!)
  • watched Enlighten Up (loved it!)
  • read Havi’s brilliant blog – The Fluent Self
  • Facebooked with some friends about them joining me in Pajama Day
  • practiced yoga in my kitchen
  • read the newspaper
  • read a book
  • ordered books from the library

By bedtime on Saturday I was sleepy enough to go to bed at regular bedtime. I slept like a baby until morning and by Sunday evening I actually felt rested and ready for work.

 I hope to have another Pajama Day soon. I look forward to hearing about yours.

Today’s yoga brought to by Laura (one of my teacher training classmates!) at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento.

Today’s music is Stay Positive by The Hold Steady.

Remember to come back each Tuesday I’ll share an easy, nutritious recipe so you can join me in the home-cooked self-care.

Also don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

 

Yoga+Music365 (day10) – Noble Beast by Andrew Bird

Dear Downward Facing Dog and your evil twin Reverse Plank,

I hate you.

Love,

Tams

PS – I can’t see why anyone else likes you either. That’s how much I hate you.

Today’s yoga brought to you by Althea at It’s All Yoga, Sacramento. – A rare weekend treat!

Today’s music is Noble Beast by Andrew Bird.

Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

My Yoga Manifesto – PART III- All People Can Do Yoga

iay awesomeness - photo credit: vanessa vichit-vadakan

Manifesto: a public declaration of intentions, opinions, objectives, or motives, as one issued by a government, sovereign, or organization (or in this case, yoga teacher).

I believe all people can do yoga.

Yes, even you.

Some folks may be put off by yoga because they may think it’s about twisting their bodies into impossible poses usually found in a bag of pretzels.

Some people may be put off yoga because they think they are too ( chubby, old, young, busy, injured, poor, sad, happy, stressed out, tired, cool…)

Other may be put off yoga because they think they aren’t (flexible, strong, rich, fashionable, knowledgable…) enough.

Still others don’t do yoga because they think yoga is too (weird, out there, religious, trendy, bendy, slow, foreign).

I’m positive people that can find 1,001 reasons not to practice yoga.

I’d like to change all that.

You’ve just got to find the right teacher for your kind of yoga. The right teacher for you.

The right kind of teacher for you, right now, in the body you live in.

The right teacher for you will give modifications, work with the body you have, not have expectations of you, not judge you, not push you, not laugh at you. Generally not make you feel bad about yourself.

The right kind of teacher for you will explain what you are doing, help you move in and out of poses safely, show you how to use props to help you go places you can’t go on your own and maybe even make you giggle on occasion.

The right kind of teacher for you will help you see that yoga isn’t about perfecting poses, but about living in the body you have right now.

The right kind of teacher for you will help you find some stillness in the over-scheduled life we all seem to be living these days.

The right kind of teacher for you will help you see the beauty in the world.

The right kind of teacher for you will help you see the beauty in you.

If any of this sounds good to you, come take a class with me. Right now, I’m on the rotating new teacher schedule at It’s All Yoga in Sacramento. We’ve got a free class on Friday afternoons.

FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) –  sign up online www.itsallyoga.com.

If you are looking for a restorative class in Sacramento, we’ve got one of those too.

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What do you think makes a teacher right for you?

Music Roundup! Week 1

 Starting today, each Saturday I’ll share my thoughts on the music of the week. Please keep in mind I am not a music critic, just a girl with a musical obsession that needs to be tempered.

Yoga+Music365 is my effort to expand my musical horizons by listening to a new album every day in 2010.

I’m always looking for new music, so please send me the titles of albums that you absolutely can not live without, albums you wish were on everyone’s iPods and albums you play over and over despite no one else “getting it”.

The albums don’t have to be new releases, just new to me.

NOTE: I’m linking to MySpace when it’s available because of the ease of listening to songs, not because of a love of MySpace.

MUSIC ROUNDUP!

Day One:

Title: 500 Days of Summer Soundtrack

Highlights:

There is a Light that Never Goes Off – The Smiths

 Mushaboom – Feist

Us – Regina Spektor (link included video of this and the next song and movie preview – BONUS!)

Vagabond Wolfmother

You Make My Dreams – Hall and Oates – If you haven’t seen this movie, this scene is worth the price of admission. Seriously, watch it NOW!

Will I listen again?

Without a doubt!

Day Two:

Title: Furr by Blitzen Trapper

Highlights:

1. Sleepy Time in the Western World (every album should start so strong)

2. Furr – very Beatles, Simon & Garfunkel-esque. LOVE IT!

3. God+Suicide (the title alone wins)

4. Black River Killer (Why oh why, do I so enjoy the songs about killing people?)

Will I listen again?

Absolutely!

Day Three:

Title: In Our Nature by Jose Gonzalez

Highlights:

1. How Low

Will I listen again?

Jose Gonzalez was recommended to be by a friend because of how much I love Elliot Smith‘s breathy/folky “only meant for lover’s ears” kinds of songs. JG didn’t do much for me. Not to say he isn’t a talented musician because he is, he just isn’t my cup of tea.

Plus he has an 8 (!) minute song on a 33 minute record. I guess he didn’t get my very personal memo about the brilliance of the 3 minute song.

Will I listen again? Maybe. We’ll see what other gems are uncovered this year.

Day Four:

Title: My Maudlin Career by Camera Obscura

Highlights:

1. French Navy (Just trying listening without tapping your foot or shaking your butt.)

2. Away with Murder

3. Forests and Sand

4. Honey in the Sun

Will I listen again?

I already am!

Tracyanne Campbell sounds like an angel, plus it’s catchy & you can dance to it!

Day Five:

Title: Narrow Stairs by Death Cab for Cutie (full disclosure: I’ve heard it before, just not in 2010. For some reason I LOVE this band name. Why? I really don’t know).

Highlights:

Radio hits galore!

1. I Will Possess Your Heart

2. Cath…

Will I listen again?

Um, yeah. And so will you if you listen to “alternative” commercial radio. This isn’t a bad thing, it’s nice for good music to come on the radio sometimes.

Day Six:

Title: Flower of Avalon by Tracy Grammer

Highlights:

1. Laughlin Boy

2. Preston Miller

Will I listen again?

She has a beautiful voice – very much like Margo Timmins of the Cowboy Junkies. So I’ll probably stick with Margo and play “Lay It Down” when I want to hear the Cowboy Junkies.

 Day Seven:

Title: Here We Come by The Fratellis

Highlights:

1. Shameless (very Big Star. Yes, Big Star that did that 70’s show song)

2. Look Out Sunshine!

3. Babydoll

4. Acid Jazz Singer

Will I listen again?

YES!

Please leave a comment about what you think I should be listening to this year.

Or send me a CD – Yoga+Music365 c/o Tami Hackbarth PO BOX 188616 Sacramento, CA 95818.

Today’s yoga brought to you by: The Kitchen! in Sacramento. All kidding aside, it’s a home practice day.

Today’s music is The Reminder by Feist.

 

Yoga+Music365 (day8) – New Seasons by The Sadies

Starting today, every Friday I am going to take a day off from blogging.

But what about the yoga and the music? I’ll post the practice and the title (probably on Saturday).

Let’s be honest, the real self-care comes from knowing your limits, boundaries and taking the time you need to renew.

What will I be doing instead of yoga, music and writing about yoga and music?

In honor of listening to my need for self-care, I’m having my twice monthly massage today.  Yep, I get a 90 minute massage every other Friday from Tess Bradley at the Body Mind Center in Midtown Sacramento.

<Drop everything and immediately make an appointment with her – she’s AMAZING! Tell her you read about her here>

Twice a month massage?!?!?

It must be nice. <snide comment I’ve been hearing for years about this practice>

Why yes, it is.

I look at massage as a financial commitment to my health and well-being. Massage, like yoga, helps me be a nicer person. It feels good and it helps keep me healthy. It also helps me be a better teacher, wife and friend. I started having massage regularly so I could deal with the grief of my stepdad dying and felt all the benefits of regular body work.

What practices do you regularly do to take care of yourself? Please leave a comment and if your self-care thing interests me, maybe I’ll start doing your thing too.

PS- Think of Fridays as blog-reading catch-up day. If you’ve been a little behind on all the good stuff, here’s my gift to you.

PPS- I’m thinking of Saturdays being music round ups.

 PPPS- Don’t forget FREE Fridays at 4:30 with the new It’s All Yoga teachers (21st and X in Sacramento) – you’ve got to sign up online www.itsallyoga.com

Yoga+Music365 (day7) – Here We Stand by The Fratellis

I love January.

Most people think of January as the beginning of the year, the time of year for resolutions and self-improvement. But as a teacher, it is pretty much the midpoint.

I spend the first half of the year filling them up with information, procedures and expectations. Some kids can keep up with the quick pace from the start. Some kids can’t.

But then I send them home for winter break and it finally all sinks in.

My students are finally mine.

Every year in January I’m surprised how much my class comes together. I’m surprised how much we’ve become a real community. We’ve finally learned how to work well together, how to get our work finished and what behavior works and what doesn’t.

By this time of the year, I always feel connected to my students and I am proud of their accomplishments. It’s so nice to see them become more independent learners and to really start to take charge of their learning.

It’s my hope that one day, I will finally remember that my class really becomes mine, in January.

Today’s yoga brought to you by Madeleine at It’s All Yoga, Sacramento. <ROCKS>

Today’s music is Here We Stand by The Fratellis.

Yoga+Music365 (day6) – Flower of Avalon by Tracy Grammer

I slept horribly last night. It was hard to turn off my head and fall asleep. I woke up several times and had a hard time turning my head off to go back to sleep. The alarm went off way too early today. Needless to say, the adrenaline of returning to school has gone.

Self-care?

Ugh.

All this self-care mindfulness is working!  Rather than sitting on the couch waiting for bedtime to arrive, I went to a yoga class and a walk with a friend. So thank you readers for getting my butt off the couch.

Yoga = Kim at It’s All Yoga – (check out the “Word of the Year”). Check out the comments and leave your word of the year.

Kim reminded us that our practice is a good way to witness our thoughts and patterns. We were working on balance poses today. She kindly reminded us to not get too attached one way or the other to the outcome.  So nice to have someone telling you again and again what you need to hear.

She also gave some incredibly clear and concise instruction for Vasisthasana. I got into the pose feeling very balanced and strong – what a huge difference!  

Today’s Music: Flowers of Avalon Tracy Grammer

Stayed tuned for the weekly music roundup and my love letter to the yoga props I love.

Please let me know what you like and want to hear more about.

Yoga+Music365 (day5) – Narrow Stairs by Death Cab for Cutie

Starting today, each Tuesday I’ll share an easy, nutritious recipe so you can join me in the home-cooked self-care.

One of the ways that helps me feel really cared for is home cooking. I’m not a huge foodie or someone who likes to spend a lot of time in the kitchen. I do, however get a huge sense of accomplishment from having cooked and a huge sense of comfort from having eaten healthy, nutritious food.

Breakfast sets the tone for the rest of my day. If I eat a warm, home-cooked breakfast I usually end of eating well the rest of the day. When I do this frequently, my immune system stays intact and I don’t catch every plague that comes into my classroom. Or at least it doesn’t kill me like it used to.

Today’s recipe is from my friend Suzan whose daughter runs New Leaf Ayurveda. While I haven’t been out to the center myself, I have eaten some of their Food For Friends meals – delicious!

SPICED APPLES

Serves 1

Cube one apple

Put apple in saucepan

Cover with filtered water

Throw in a couple of whole cloves, some vanilla, and lots of cinnamon

Cook apples until soft and water has evaporated.

Remove cloves mash apple with a masher.

Eat.

I like to stir in some quinoa or leftover brown rice, Udo’s oil, ricotta cheese and sliced almonds for a well-rounded breakfast. 

Whenever I eat this at school my students always comment that it smells like apple pie. I have to agree!

Today’s yoga = Viparita Karani on my new Hugger Mugger (god, I love that name!) bolster.

Yep, just one pose.

But it’s a really, really good one.

Try it!

Please leave me a comment about anything you like or want to know more about.

***1/6/09 edit

I forgot the music link – Death Cab for Cutie.

  

  

 

Yoga+Music365 (day4) – My Maudlin Career by Camera Obscura

Today I returned to work after more than two weeks off. The real self-care challenge begins now that I’ve been pushed out of the comfy nest of my house back into the real world.

I’m happy to report that the self-care plan continued!

Setting limits on pre-work screen time helped me start the day without being late, nutritious food kept me fueled and recognizing that my students work at a way slower pace the first day from vacation helped me ease back into work more smoothly than in the past.

Today’s music link: Camera Obscura.

Today’s yoga brought to you by It’s All Yoga in Sacramento.

In the coming weeks I’ll be adding some regular posts on yoga and self-care. Topics I’m thinking about are:

  •  A weekly music round-up
  • Yoga props and how I use them
  • My favorite yoga and/or poetry books
  • Nourishing, yet tasty and easy recipes
  • Self-massage tips (keep it clean, people!)
  • General self-care ideas
  • Anything else you are interested in. Just let me know what you are interested in reading.

One of my supportive commenters, Mamasattva, asked for music links. You ask and you shall receive!

Yoga+Music365 (day3) – In Our Nature by Jose Gonzalez

My inner teacher this morning would like to share some insights that came up during class today. Just a warning, not all insights are pleasant or very “yoga” like (whatever that means)…

TARDINESS

Here’s a pet peeve… if you are new to a studio and need to fill out the new student form, wouldn’t it be a good idea to get to the studio a few minutes before class starts? I am just saying that your late arrival didn’t just inconvenience you. The people who planned and actually got to class on time all have to shift their mats to make room for you.

Not the end of the world, however in case you are wondering if that bugged anyone, it did.

YOUR FAVORITE FRAGRANCE

Just yesterday I wondered who wears perfume because of all the advertisements I was choking on while trying to read a magazine. I thought, I don’t think I know a single person that wears perfume daily. I wonder if the perfume companies are hurting for money…. (don’t mock me for my stupid thoughts, you know you have them too).

Well, silly me. When you ask the universe a question, even a silly one like who still wears perfume – the universe feels compelled to answer it.

This morning’s yoga class gave me my answer. I found out that someone still wears perfume.

A LOT.

It didn’t hit me until I was coming up from a forward bend and my nose started dripping on my mat. Snot literally dripping out of my nose onto the mat. Fast! Like I can’t even catch it fast. Disgusting, I know. Imagine how I felt! As I rushed back to grab a tissue, I looked for the culprit and was unable to figure out who was offending my nostrils. 

The perfume in question was a lovely scent, however probably more appropriate anywhere in the world other than a hugely crowded beginning of the year yoga class.

No one is smelling like roses at the end of the class, so let’s not try to begin the class that way either.

COMPETITION

Don’t think I am just bitching about others. 

Wasn’t it just the other day when I was talking about how I never left a yoga class feeling worse than when I went in?

Again, it’s like I was just tempting the universe to prove me wrong.

I kept looking at other people on their mats and comparing myself to them. I know this kind of thinking isn’t popular in yoga circles, but sometimes it just happens. Or at least it happens to me.

I was thinking why can they do that twisty around thingy when I am having trouble sitting this morning?

They even seem to be enjoying this ridiculous amount of flow… Hey wait a minute! We never do this much flow… why are we now?

I HATE FLOW! That’s it, I’m not doing any more….

My inner teacher spoke loudly to me today.  I think she reminded me that if I want to not bugged by tardiness, perfume and competition maybe I need to spend a bit more time in my kitchen being my own teacher.

Anyone else have any yoga class pet peeves?

Yoga+Music365 (day2) – Furr by Blitzen Trapper

I feel so very virtuous! I practiced yoga all by myself at home for 45 minutes and it didn’t feel like a chore, weird, lonely or anything else negative. I also didn’t feel awkward or fumble around for what to do next (all of which has happened in the past).

This is a huge deal for me because I’ve been so spoiled by finding such amazing teachers in Sacramento. It’s All Yoga has an embarrassment of riches in this way and by working the front desk, I get all the free yoga I can do.

But let’s be honest, sometimes classes don’t fit into your schedule or you just can’t be bothered to get all the way dressed or your hair just isn’t public ready and so you’ve got to do your own practice at home. Believe me, I know it sounds crazy and like a big hassle. And honestly when others do such a great job teaching why should I do it for myself?

Check out my post on starting a home practice to see my reasoning.

All that being said, not everyone knows where to start a home practice. Since I totally have been resisting doing one even though it was a requirement in my yoga teacher training, I figure I should share what is making it possible for me.

1. I’ve got some sequences written just for me by my yoga study buddy Erin. She rocks and is one of the people teaching free Fridays at 4:30 at It’s All Yoga, so if you are lucky enough to go when she’s teaching, she’ll love you up too. I’ll share her magic sequence from today.

2. I have a yoga mat that is so squishy and sticky and yummy it begs me to use it. Long story short, I’ve been test driving a Jade Harmony Professional mat over the last few months at the studio. The company is on Facebook and Twitter and they like to give stuff away. Jade sent me a teacher demo blemished mat in Sedona Red (and I was supposed to give it to my husband but,)  I love its blemish.  In fact, I think it’s little hiccup stripe makes it even more beautiful.

PS – I love social media and have won so much stuff on Facebook and Twitter that now I think of it as the magic universe.

Here’s the lovely sequence from Erin. Yes, we were talking menu metaphors when we were writing these =)

Appetizer

Start in CR (constructive rest) with lazy belly breaths, landing, arriving

Knees to chest arms out to a ‘t’ – lower knees to either side and bringing them back in with strong belly exhalation (3-5 times each side)

Back to CR, breathe

Opposite arm/leg extensions using breath (from Mary Paffard Belly Work Article)

*exhale as you extend right leg and left arm out straight, inhale extended, and exhale to bring the limbs back to CR (3-5 for each side)

 Salad

Roll spine to come to Uttanasana

reverse swan dive up

exhale hands to heart

full breath cycle @ heart

inhale arms sweep back up, baby backbend

exhale Uttanasana

inhale flat back

exhale Uttanasana

step back into playful, squirmy Adho Mukha Svanasana

Entrée

When you’re ready, right leg lunge

Virabhadrasana I and hold for some breaths (belly belly belly)

Clasp hands or strap behind back (shoulder opener)

Lower torso down to inside of thigh with arms clasped behind pointing toward ceiling

Hold for a couple breath cycles as comfy

Exhale upright, release arms and raise them back to Virabhadrasana I

(heart feel more open than first Virabhadrasana I?)

Dog

Flow: Plank, Chaturanga Dandasana, Cobra/up dog, Down Dog

Step to Uttanasana

 REPEAT SALAD

REPEAT ENTRÉE on Left side

 Cheese Plate

Balasana

To Belly with limbs fully extended, raising opposite Arm/Leg with inhales, releasing with exhales (4-5 times each side)  *Similar to how we started except on the belly.

Balasana

Come onto back, knees to chest, gentle rolls

Figure 4 stretch w/ right leg on top

Figure 4 with twist (sole of right foot to floor on left side, looking right)

Repeat on Left and anything else you need/feel like doing before Savasana

 Dessert

Savasana (10 mins)

Yoga+Music365 (day1) – 500 Days of Summer Soundtrack

Yesterday I made my big proclamation that I would do some yoga and listen to new music every day in 2010.  I’m calling it the Yoga+Music365.

Today during class at It’s All Yoga (where else?), Michelle spoke about all things “new year” – resolutions, intentions, to-do’s, shoulds, cultural expectations and this got me thinking about my reasoning for taking on this self-imposed yoga+music challenge.

To be honest, I got caught up in the Best of 2009 Challenge fever of writing about my previously unkept resolutions and decided to try last year’s again. Of course with the added twist of the additional 11 months.

How hard could this be anyway? I made it a whole 19 days last year before I got sick and gave up.

Then it sunk in that I had just announced to the universe that I was going to do something every day for a year.

What if something came up and I couldn’t do one or both?

Did I just commit myself to another thing?

Aren’t I already overcommitted?

What if I don’t feel like it?

What if I failed?

Gulp.

So after class today I talked to Michelle. It became clear to me why I was swimming in fear on day one because on the surface it just doesn’t make sense.

I love yoga. It feels great. I’ve never felt worse after a class or even rolling out on my mat at home. In fact, I can say yoga has never failed to actually make me feel better. So that’s not it.

My little music experiment last year expanded my horizons so much that I’m still listening to some mix CDs friends made me and loving them.  If I hadn’t gone on my Old97’s fast last year,  I wouldn’t have ever been introduced to Ryan Adams or Andrew Bird or Neko Case, so that’s not it.

In talking to Michelle, I realized that yoga and music are really good self-care for me. When all planets are aligned i.e. — I go to bed early, sleep well, eat healthy food, listen to music, write, read, exercise, do yoga, play with my friends, and laugh — I am a very happy girl.

When I don’t, I’m not.

Ultimately, I think I am taking on this challenge so that I will be reminded to put my self-care as a top priority in my life.

So here is to a year of doing less of what doesn’t serve me and doing more of what does.

Resolution #best09

This is the last of the Best of 2009 Blog Challenge. I finished 16 out of 31 prompts. Not too shabby considering I found this challenge on December 27th!  Here’s to better planning next year.

Taking the time to reflect on the past year in this way has helped me see what a great year it was. I blame all of you for that!

December 31 Resolution you wish you’d stuck with. (You know, there’s always next year…)

I’m not a big resolution maker. At least not a public one. I, like most people, failed to keep them year after year, so I eventually stopped making them.

Until last year.

By the end of December last year, I’d had a really good run of consistent yoga classes and I was feeling amazing. I decided that I would try to do some yoga every day in January. I figured I would start small – just a month – to see how it went. I made a spread sheet to keep track of my progress and did pretty well for the first few weeks until I got a virus,  broke my resolution and abandoned the project.

The second part of my secret non-resolution project was a bit more successful. After years of spending all my music hours almost exclusively on The Old97’s and Rhett Miller solo albums (Best Night Out and Best Album of 2009 – oh look! 2 more prompts just answered!), I decided to use January to expand my musical horizons.

During my Old97’s fast I listened to a new album a day. New didn’t necessarily mean newly released, it meant a different album everyday in January. I made it farther than with the yoga, however I still didn’t manage new music everyday.

This year, I’ve decided to try both these projects again(without the 97s fast!), but this time for the whole year.

In 2010, I am going to do some sort of  yoga and listen to new music everyday.

Please leave comments about classes I should go to, teachers you find inspiring, poses you love and music I shouldn’t miss. Hell, if you come across a book you can’t stop reading, be sure to tell me about that too!

Sometimes I get stuck in a rut and I’m counting on all of you to help me diversify.

YOGA! cluster #best09

For me, 2009 was the year of coming out of the yoga closet. Before this year, I’d been quietly practicing on and off for the last decade or so. In thinking what changed for me, I’d have to say it was my changing relationship with my favorite yoga studio, It’s All Yoga, in Sacramento.

In 2009, I really made IAY my second home. It all started mid 2008 when I began my career as a Desk Diva and that summer the studio relocated 6 blocks from my house. Those two things changed everything!

Suddenly I was able to go to as many classes as I wanted with all the amazing, inspiring and let’s be honest – funny! – teachers and that made me want to share all of the yoga yummy-ness with everyone I know. I couldn’t keep yoga to myself any longer!

Workshops, partner classes, book club, movie night, creek cleanup, birthday parties, fundraisers, teacher training…. I did it all in 2009.

Creek Clean

Creek Clean - the kill

The following are a cluster of Best of 2009 Blog Challenge prompts about yoga, yoga, yoga.

December 6 Workshop or conference. Was there a conference or workshop you attended that was especially beneficial? Where was it? What did you learn?

The Serene Heart with Mary Paffard – Working with upekkha, or equanimity, in all aspects of yoga. I wrote about this workshop in my Not Losing Your Marbles During the Holidays post.

The morning of Mary’s workshop I posted my Yoga Manifesto – Part 1 – REST.

Rest

December 8 Moment of peace. An hour or a day or a week of solitude. What was the quality of your breath? The state of your mind? How did you get there?

Short answer. Yoga!

December 9 Challenge. Something that really made you grow this year. That made you go to your edge and then some. What made it the best challenge of the year for you?

Yoga school while teaching. See the Saturation Point.

December 18 Shop. Online or offline, where did you spend most of your mad money this year?

Here’s a partial sampling of the yoga workshops and special classes I attended this year:

  • New Year’s Day with Michelle Marlahan
  • Valentine’s Day Partners with Michelle Marlahan
  • Earth Day partners with Michelle Marlahan
  • Chakras Workshop with Madeleine Lohman
  • Tapas with Mary Paffard
  • Yoga for Holiday Stress with Madeleine Lohman
  • Serene Heart Mary Paffard 
  • Anatomy Parts I and II with Baxter Bell
Trees

Valentine's Day

December 24 Learning experience. What was a lesson you learned this year that changed you?

Learning to teach yoga. Really to share what I love with others. That’s what this blog is all about.

Adjusting

Adjusting

December 25 Gift. What’s a gift you gave yourself this year that has kept on giving?

Short answer: Yoga!

Quaddog!

 

 

Tea #best09

December 16 Tea of the year. I can taste my favorite tea right now. What’s yours?

Bliss from Temple Fine Coffee & Tea.

Bliss = peppermint tea, soy milk, coconut milk, and honey. Plus I think they sprinkle it with magic fairy dust just to make sure. It’s tastes like a warm Andes mint. MMmmmmm.

It’s all in the name people.

#best09

I am still playing catch up on the Best of 2009 Challenge.

Tomorrow is the last day and so I’ll do some posts together and then the final. I hope you’ve enjoyed reading these as much as I have writing them. I’ve been really inspired and touched by some of the posts I’ve read from other people doing the Challenge. You can find more of them on Gwen Bell’s website.

Ad #best09

December 30 Ad.

What advertisement made you think this year

This lululemon ad caught my attention. I wanted to know what it said.

It didn’t make me buy the product, but it did make me stop and think.

Some people have very strong feelings about this company.

I don’t.

Mostly because I don’t wear fancy yoga clothes. I don’t think they’re necessary in order to have a yoga practice. I can’t really afford expensive yoga wear (I’d rather travel) and I’m pretty sure their clothes wouldn’t flatter my more mature womanly curves.

In any case, this ad made me take a look.

Laugh #best09

December 29 Laugh.

What was your biggest belly laugh of the year?

I have a really funny husband, so I get to laugh everyday.

Dude’s laugh even makes me laugh.

Lucky girl.

New Person #best09

 
Summer Al aka Birdman

Tams n' Summer Al

 

December 20 New person. He came into your life and turned it upside down. He went out of his way to provide incredible customer service. Who is your unsung hero of 2009?

Let me start with this. I am not a baby crazy woman. I don’t look longingly at other people’s babies or talk to pregnant strangers.

Yes, I like kids. I’m a teacher for god’s sake, but I’m not koo-koo for babies.

Until I met Alex.

Summer Al.

Aka Birdman.

I first laid eyes on Summer Al outside the Sacramento Amtrak station. It was about a 1,000 degrees and Jojos was  trying to keep the sun off of her tiny, ginger-haired British baby boy. He was tucked under her arm in the shade of the overhang like a little loaf of bread.

It was love at first sight.

I took him from Jo right away in an effort to be “helpful” while she and Julian clicked in car seats, loaded luggage and corralled their toddler. And pretty much for the next two weeks we were together, you could find the Birdman in my arms.

It wasn’t difficult, he didn’t weight much – hence the name. He was Mr. Easy Breezy, second-born kid. Who was this new person always holding me? Who cares?

I taught him a new game – Cyclops. I would take off my glasses, we would put our foreheads together, look into each others eyes and then shake our heads back and forth really fast blurring our vision. Then we’d laugh our asses off.

This kid was funny.

Birdman also became my dining companion. He wasn’t that interested in eating, which explained his bird-like physique, but when he did eat anything his pace matched mine. Nice and slow. We’d sit at the dinner table long after everyone else had finished and slowly make our way through our dinner like we didn’t have anything else in the world to do.

During our trip up the coast, whenever I wasn’t driving I sat myself strategically so I could watch Summer Al’s every move. There was just something about that kid.

When the time came for Summer Al to return to home, I cried.

Book(s) #best09

December 4th’s prompt:

 Book. What book – fiction or non – touched you? Where were you when you read it? Have you bought and given away multiple copies?

The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane touched my heart this year. Although it wasn’t published in 2009, I read it this year. I picked this book up from the McClatchy Library because I had loved Kate DiCamillo’s other books: especially Because of Winn Dixie and The Tiger Rising.

I needed a book to use to teach my class about story structure, a book that would clearly spell out the story’s problem and resolution. My plan was to find a read aloud book to my class that we could analyze and enjoy the book together. My search for the perfect book was over when I found Edward Tulane.

As usual, I always pre-read books that I read to my class. I want to make sure I know what is coming, what I’ll need to explain and so that I can practice my read aloud voice. I don’t remember the details of my solo read, but I do remember thinking this is one of the best children’s books I’d ever read.

As I sat on my chair in the front of my classroom, kids sitting on the floor at my knee, I began the read aloud by showing them the cover of the book. Like the good readers they are becoming they began asking questions and making predictions about the story just by looking at the cover.

The kids asked what miraculous meant and wondered who was that little rabbit in the red pajamas in the picture? They decided that this book must be fantasy because rabbits don’t really wear pajamas.

Sharing a chapter a day, the kids sat on the carpet criss-cross-apple-sauce, leaning forward listening intently. They were immediately entranced with the story of this China doll rabbit.

When asked about the story’s problem, one of my students explained that the story’s problem was really Edward’s problem: “It’s all about love, Ms. Hackbarth. Although many loved him, Edward himself was not able to love.”

Nothing warms a teacher’s heart more than an eight year old so clearly articulating the problem! The main character’s inability to love is the problem in this story. The other students correctly predicted that by the end of the story he would come around to loving those who had loved him longest.

Some may say that makes Edward Tulane a predictable story, but I would argue there is so much suffering in this story that the resolution leaves you feeling like love really is possible. This book is absolutely heartbreaking and in the end so redeeming that I can’t wait to share it with my class this year.

BONUS BOOK!

I am a very lucky woman. I get to read to kids and they pay me. So in order to earn my keep, I read kid’s books more  than most.

The Dirty Cowboy by Amy Timberlake made my class laugh so much that they made me read it to them more than once. They even made me read it out loud in front of one of our parent helpers because they said I read it so well.

This book was a particularly good pick for this class because many in my class were reluctant readers, especially my boys. By the time I had returned The Dirty Cowboy to the library, the book had been well-loved and reread by many in my class.

Stationery #best09

December 28 Stationery.

When you touch the paper, your heart melts. The ink flows from the pen. What was your stationery find of the year?

After reading this prompt, I think I may be missing out on one of life’s simple pleasures. I haven’t written or received a letter on stationery in years. Like most, I keep up with friends via email, text and Facebook. I do, however,  remember the feeling of excitement when a hand-written letter would come in the mail.

For a while, after most people were keeping up with friends only on the Internet,  my friend Joanne and I would exchange real letters. We were inspired to write letters to each other based on a book about two friends living in different parts of the world and longing to keep the connection between them.

While Jo and I no longer write letters to each other and despite living on different continents, career changes and children, we still manage to stay connected to each other. Yes, Facebook has played a role in that. A smaller role than one would think.

Instead, we plan vacations together.

Before Jojos went to medical school and still had her fancy flying around the world job, I could count on her annual visit. Once she settled in country to study medicine, I wondered how we’d keep up that pace. Thankfully she missed California and wanted to show it (and her old friends) off to her new boyfriend.

The next summer we traveled to England to meet her new baby girl and to spend a couple weeks together in the South of France. The four adults to one 9 month old baby ratio was perfect for a relaxing holiday of swimming pool hijinks and cheese eating.

Last summer Jojos brought her little family, which now included a new baby boy, back to California for some summer fun. Some friends we have in town were traveling to Italy for the summer and generously offered their house to the Brits. They have two daughters so when little Sophie came into a holiday house filled with girlie toys, she exclaimed, “It’s the House of Treasures”!

 With our adoption plans keeping us guessing, we’re not sure what our next vacation will be.  Or even when it will be. Maybe in the meantime, I’ll spend some time writing Jo a real letter on real stationery and revive that little pleasure in my life.

Social Web Moment #best09

While lurking around many blogs today trying to uncover their mystery, I stumbled up  The Best of 2009 Blog Challenge.  The idea is to write 31 posts using 31 prompts (or as many or as few as you want) as a retrospective of 2009.

I’ll start with today’s prompt and see what unfolds over the next few days…

December 27 Social web moment.

Did you meet someone you used to only know from her blog? Did you discover Twitter? 

Blog – I’d say my biggest blog moment in 2009 is that I started one! It wasn’t my idea, but here I am trying to figure out what to write, when to write, how to write etc. I feel like a toddler learning to type or a dog trying to drive the car.

Yes, I can do it, but someone might need to take the wheel every once in a while or everyone might get car sick.

Anyway…Michelle Marlahan, our lovely leader of the It’s All Yoga teacher training, asked us to document our journey of becoming yoga teachers. About half of us signed up and shared our discoveries along the way. See my blogroll for the scoop…

While we have just wrapped up our official training, most of us are still using our blogs to find our new place in the world. I feel like these blogs have let us see what is behind the curtain for the new teachers. It feels like a community.

Havi Brooks of the Fluent Self is a complete genius. She came to Sacramento to talk to me and all the other newbie yoga teachers about business stuff and to do some very cool dancing.

I’m so glad I got to meet her in person. She has so many interesting and thoughtful and wordy things to say in her blog, it was nice to hear them and now I’m so much better at understanding what she’s talking about. I hope I get to meet her again!

I discovered Twitter because my favorite singer, @rhettmiller is on there.  Embarrassing semi-stalker confessions, but totally true. He’s the first person on my following list and he was my #97 when he decided to follow me (amazing because his band is called the Old97s).

Getting Rhett Miller to follow me took some lobbying from one of my other Twitter friends @sophieandlili who I did not know before the wonderful world of Twitter.

In addition to keeping apprised of all things Rhett, I’ve connected with a bunch of really interesting, smart women while I was there: @sophieandlili, @beckyandhollee, @ashmont  to name just a couple.

Facebook

I love you.

 

Yogi to (Half) Marathoner

I signed up for a half marathon training through Fleet Feet in Sacramento. I have been quietly thinking about joining a training group like this for months and without over-thinking (and talking myself out of ) the whole thing, I committed myself to training at least twice a week from January to March.

This is a huge deal for me because I have been only doing yoga as exercise for a couple of years now. And from what you know about my kind of yoga, most of it has involved laying down.

Truth be told, I’m a little nervous. I’ve never been a runner, jogger or even regular walker. I’m not really sure what I’ve gotten myself into. As of right now, I don’t know anyone else doing this training. I’ve never done a big event like this before and I’m pretty sure 13.1 miles is a long way, even if you are just walking!

I signed up for the Tuesday night and Saturday morning workouts. My goal is to learn how to do a run/walk, however  right now I’m in the walkers group.

The big event takes place the weekend before my big 4-0. I guess I’ll have a lot to celebrate!

12 Days of Yoga

Campus Martius Christmas Tree

On the first day of yoga

My true love sent to me

A monthly unlimited pass.

On the second day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the third day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass

On the fourth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass

On the fifth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the sixth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the seventh day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the eighth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Eight downward facing dogs

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the ninth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Nine legs up the walls

Eight downward facing dogs

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the tenth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Ten Vrksasanas

Nine legs up the walls

Eight downward facing dogs

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the eleventh day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Eleven reverse warriors

Ten Vrksasanas

Nine legs up the walls

Eight downward facing dogs

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

On the twelfth day of yoga

My true love sent to me

Twelve Chaturangas

Eleven reverse warriors

Ten Vrksasanas

Nine legs up the walls

Eight downward facing dogs

Seven upward facing bows

Six Tadasanas

Five SV-AS-A-NAS!

Four triangles

Three handstands

Two warriors

And a monthly unlimited pass.

It’s All Yoga – 21st and X Streets – Sacramento

My Yoga Manifesto – PART II- Kindness

Like most people who come to yoga, I was first drawn to what I needed least from a yoga practice.

  • heat
  • intensity
  • power
  • competition

Too much heat and intensity for my already intense personality burnt me out quickly.  So I stopped going.

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Manifesto – a public declaration of intentions, opinions, objectives, or motives, as one issued by a government, sovereign, or organization (or in this case yoga teacher).

II. KINDNESS

Eventually I found what I really need from a yoga practice – kindness.

You may be scratching your head wondering what the hell kindness has to do with stretching and contorting your body into funny shapes.

As it turns out, a lot.

Let me explain.

When I first started taking classes with Michelle at It’s All Yoga (Sacramento), I was struck by her warmth and friendliness. She’d always greet me with a hug – and by hug I mean a full body embrace (she gives the best hugs)– and welcome me to class like we were long-lost best friends.

kindness

Then before we’d begin class, Michelle would remind us to work somewhere between effort and ease. She’d invite us to explore how we felt in our bodies in the different poses and listen to what we needed to feel good in that moment.

Admittedly, at first I thought this was crazy talk.

Why would I come to yoga class and not do my best poses?

Why wouldn’t I push myself harder than I had the day before?

How would I ever get better at yoga?

In these early days with Michelle, she’d walk by my mat and lovingly put her hand on my shoulder and say “For you my friend, 70 percent.”

I tried to do what she said, but it felt so foreign.

Who was this person that didn’t want to see the best that I had to offer?

Didn’t she see that I could do more?

What did she know that I didn’t?

Over time, what I learned from Michelle is that yoga isn’t a performance.

It’s isn’t a competition – even with yourself.

That what you could do yesterday doesn’t really matter. Every time you do a pose it’s different because this moment is different from the last.

The only thing that really matters is the now.

Michelle’s kind reminders of “70 percent” were exactly what I needed to hear. I needed someone to teach me to be kinder to myself.

As it turns out, being kinder to myself is my yoga.

Michelle’s kindness is one of the reasons I’ve decided I want to teach yoga. I hope to touch the hearts of other people the way she has touched mine.